i'm ill. so i must sit home and do nothing. because i can't do anything. i can't sleep much. i get up every hour. i need someone to be here. but.... my parents are always at work and they ask me to do something. for example clean the dishes or anything else. but i can't. my friends.... so i thinks i have no friends. because they forget about me. they meet together without me. my husband always leave me alone. so i feel lost. i want to die. really. i can't saw this shit. because i feel myself like a shit.
i'm always crying. just crying. without some reasons.